kakes by holly

wow its been crazy!

2010-05-25T08:23:00.000-07:00

what a crazy couple of weeks! may is the busiest time of the the year! i haven't managed to even check my blog much less do a new post. but finally here it is!

this cake was for a bridal shower...the pink daisies were silk and i thought they topped the cake off really well!

this was a graduation cake obviously! it was for one of my mom's friends from high school's son she also got 2 cheesecakes which i did not get a picture of :/ the cake was red velvet with cream cheese icing

ericka emailed me a picture of nick on his 4 wheeler and said that nick wanted his 4 wheeler on his birthday cake! so i did my best to make it look like his..this was the first time i had done a 4 wheeler and it wasnt easy but nick really liked it!

the only instruction i got for this cake was she was 15 and wanted bright colors and maybe zebra so this is what i came up with!

this cake did not turn out as well as i had hoped. its not easy doing real life objects on cakes and thats what the party theme was so i did my best.

i really love this cake! you can't really see it but beside the "a" is a tinkerbell silhouette with a wand and thats what all the pink stars are for! pixie dust!

this cake said "here's to summer!" it was for 4 kids who are obviously ready for summer!

these were mini cheesecake for a senior party...they were strawberry cheesecake and oreo cheesecake. they are the perfect size with all the flavor of a regular cheesecake!

this was for the junior high principal..they had no special request for how the cake looked so i just went with apples!

this was for a sweet little girl graduating from preschool!

another graduation cake!

i LOVE this cake it turned out soo cute!

many of you are wondering what the heck is this? jaylyns favorite drink is called the "duck fart" so here you go!

this was a grooms cake. it was 6 layers total

another peace sign cake! i have done so many of these but i try to make each one different!

this was one of 5 cakes for an 80th birthday for a farmer/rancher this was wheat...lemon cake with lemon buttercream

this was cotton...strawberry cake with strawberry buttercream

this was cowhide with kenneth's brand...vanilla cake with vanilla buttercream

a tractor...coconut cake with coconut buttercream

and here they are all together! the centerpiece was chocolate with chocolate buttercream..yum!

so this is all my cakes for the last 2 weeks! i have been pretty busy kids, school and cake! i am going out of town this coming weekend for a much needed break! thanks for stopping by!

my baby boy is 5!!!

2010-05-12T06:30:00.000-07:00

kollin marcus is 5 today...he really cant be that old can he? surely not...5 years has just flown by and he is no longer a baby boy! i think the best way to describe kollin is this...such a sweetheart with and extremely short fuse...he couldn't possibly be more of a complete duplicate of his dad! lol hes not the first one to go chase bugs, hes a super picky eater, he cries A LOT, he can't sleep without the tv on, he gets really mad really fast, hes a mommas boy, he loves to rub my belly, his faves are superheros, dinosaurs, spongebob and mario, he hates storms and he hates to be away from home for more than a few hours. but best of all hes a super loving super sensitive little boy! i love him! here are a few pictures...

for a while this is what he looked like all the time - paci and backwards hat! and just look

at all those curls! he had gorgeous hair i miss it :(

a little older now but still a backwards hat!

no hat this time!

here he is with all his dinosaur friends!

love this picture! he looks so sweet :)

backwards hat...again!

kollin and daddy the 2 coolest guys i know! lol

happy 5th birthday kollin marcus!!

week of may 3rd thru may 9th

2010-05-10T07:20:00.000-07:00

this past week has been ca-RAZY!! i guess its because i was out of town last weekend and it threw my routine all off! hopefully i can get it together this week. i did manage to crank out a few cakes thank goodness...lol. so here we go...

this week i had 2 texas rangers cakes which i have never done before. heres the first one. it was a red velver with cream cheese icing. the frosting was super soft and a little hard to work with as i don't usually decorate with cream cheese because of the softness. but i think it turned out well!

here is the 2nd one...i wanted to make it different because i don't like to make the same cake twice but all i did with it was make it blue :/ oh well

these are just some colorful flower cupcakes. the picture is no good because my batteries were out in my camera so i had to resort to my phone :/ oh well

this was a strawberry lemonade cake with cool whip(yes it was delicious!) this was the first time i had made this and i think it turned out well. i thought it would look nice garnished with fresh strawberries and lemons!

this is my first cars cake i think it turned out well. there could have been more detail...oh the what ifs...

this is obviously a mothers day cake...it was supposed to be picked up on sunday but i got a call on saturday wanting to know if they could have it later that day and i hadnt even baked it yet! omg anyway i try to be flexible with everyone and sometimes it bites me in the rear but i got it done with minutes to spare!

and now the best cake of all! it was my sons 5th birthday andhe wanted super mario bros so here it is! its all fondant that i make so it tastes wonderful not like the kind you buy at the store! yes i know that there is no mario or luigi to be found on this cake but i just couldn't figure it out...if i had done it with buttercream i would have been able to do the characters...just one of those things...he didn't care though he loved it! i don't do fondant cakes for the public unless its like a wedding cake because im just not experienced enough with it and most people don't want it.

i also did a dulce de leche cheesecake and a turtle cheesecake which i failed to get pictures of..grr! they looked wonderful and it was the first time i had made a turtle cheesecake and it looked awesome and i hear tasted awesome also! well thats all for this week!

week of april 25th thru may 1st

2010-05-03T07:17:00.000-07:00

this was a short week for me because i went to austin to my bfpv's (best friend por vida) wedding! it was so much fun!! i did have to turn down a few orders which i do not like to do but it was unavoidable. i made the grooms cake and drove all the way to austin with it. so scary and i had a few minor freak-outs but it made it there in one piece!

i wasnt given any specifics on how to decorate this cake so i decided to go with an argyle design

spiderman and batman cookies

50th with some black and white swirlies on the side

and finally the grooms cake...honestly i was not happy with the way it looked but it didn't fall apart and it did taste wonderful...it was chocolate cake with mocha cream cheese icing

week of april 19th thru 24th

2010-04-26T07:17:00.000-07:00

so it was another calm week for me but with a last minute wedding to make it a little interesting everything turned out well.

i made these cookies for one of my good friends birthday

mexican hot chocolate cupcakes with cinnamon buttercream - these were for the childress womens council monthly meeting and they were delicious :)

mickey mouse - i wasn't completely satisfied with the way this one turned out but i'm always overcritical of myself

i wasn't given too much to go on with this one the customer just told me cream and red for the colors so i just went with it.

this was for a 50th birthday obviously...i brushed the top and bottom tier with silver pearl dust per request of the customer and i think it turned out really pretty.

and this was my last minute wedding cake...they called me on thursday and wanted it for saturday...that is very short notice but i try to work with everyone...all they really wanted was all white with some maroon flowers.

so thats it for this week...thanks for stopping by!

cakes april 12th thru 17th

2010-04-17T15:22:00.000-07:00

ok so here goes my first post about my cakes for the week! this was a super slow week for me...only 3 cakes! i usually average 8-10. i'm glad when these weeks come along because i need them for my sanity! all 3 of the cake designs this week were pretty much left up to me to decide. sometimes thats a good thing and sometimes its not. i tend to overthink things and try to do too much. but this week i think everything turned out fine.

this was my first one of the week- i wasn't given any direction just that the recipient liked the color purple. i really intened it to have more flowers but somehow it just didn't turn out that way.

this one was for one of my cousins who was getting his ring from a&m

this was my last one of the week for a special little girl- and i actually finished it this morning before it was picked up at 10:30! i have decided after doing a few hannah montana cakes that i really don't like hannah montana cakes! i always try to make each one look different and this one by far was the most unique of my hannah montana cakes. i angled the tiers downwards and i have never really done that so i think that element turned out well. my signature swirlies around the side...they can cover up any unsightly frosting job..lol..pink and purple hannah montana i don't think you can go wrong with that for a 5 year old.

anyway so thats all for this week. thanks for looking and i hope you come back next week to see what i have coming up!

new focus

2010-04-15T14:52:00.000-07:00

i have officially changed my blog to focus on my baking! i think it will do me some good to talk about all the joys and frustrations of my baking business. i will still add in some family antidotes from time to time but mostly i will talk about my cakes from the week. the reason it is called "kakes by holly" is because my 3 kids and my 2 nephews and niece's names start with "k" so i thought it was fitting and plus i cant think of anything else! i am going to try to get more pictures of my specialty items for examples. anyway hope you all will enjoy it and continue to check out my new blog!

my husband, my inspiration

2010-02-21T13:41:00.000-08:00

it all started a little over a year ago when abram made a decision. he made the decision to lose weight and be healthy. from the time we got married to a year ago he had put on some weight. it was that "i'm married and comfortable" weight. most people are familiar with that. you get married and you feel like you don't have anyone to impress anymore and i didn't help matters much. i felt like "wow i have a husband now let me show him how much i love him by cooking and baking things for him" its an evil cycle! we had decided last year that our summer vacation would be going to south padre island. he did not want to look the way he looked when we were going to be going to the beach. so he got to work. we already owned a bowflex and it was rarely used but then we bought a cheap eliptical machine. with the two and his new state of mind he really started making progress. his goal for vacation was to be around 220 and i felt like that was a good goal and not unattainable. i really tried to be as supportive as possible...i never wanted him to feel like i would love him more if he lost weight because i will always love him regardless. it was really hard for him at first but he kept working at it and he did more than i thought was possible and by the time we went on vacation in july he had reached his goal of 220. i was really proud of him and he was so happy with himself. that is really the key. it doesn't matter what others think of you if you are happy with yourself you can accomplish most anything. another thing is diet. he is not afraid to splurge and eat things that aren't so good for you every once in a while. i think thats ok you know its all about moderation! i think he deals with that well. so now approximately a year later he is under 200 and looking and feeling awesome! i am still so proud of him and his accomplishments! we have now started working out together. i have never been thrilled with sweating or being sore but it has been so much fun to go workout with him that i don't even think about the negative! he works so much that there isn't much time for us to do things together and this is something that i think will bring us much closer! here are some pictures of his progress. he started at around 280 and his final goal is 180. he is soo close!

this was his birthday in july of 2008, a whole year before our south padre vacation

this was a few weeks before we left for our vacation almost a year after the previous picture

this was on our vacation, lookin pretty good!

this was kamryns first day of school hes still working on it!

and here he is today! lookin so hot!

he did all this with diet and hard, hard work. he works from 8a.m. to 9:30 at night. he gets a 2 hour break in the afternoon. so he doesn't have much time for working out but he makes the time. it would be easy to say oh i don't have the time but he doesn't. he always says you can do anything if you want it bad enough and he wants it. he is an inspiration!

valentines

2010-02-13T11:44:00.000-08:00

i think only in the texas panhandle it can snow one day and be 60 degrees and sunny the very next day. life as we know it..... since the weather was so nice i decided to get some pictures of the kids outside in their valentine shirts. we also had school valentine parties of which i got no pictures :(

around valentines day people always ask "what are you and your husband doing for valentines day?" and i always get funny looks when i tell them "nothing". we are not "gift givers" or "dinner aloners" we never have been. i told him a loong time ago to never buy me flowers. what good is a $100 worth of roses when they just die later. i am a necessity minded person. i dont see it as a bad thing and its not like our relationship suffers because of it. some people like to do the whole "buy a gift and have a nice quiet dinner" thing but we would rather have a family dinner. we rarely do anything without our kids. i do believe that you need breaks from your kids and i should probably have more than i do but thats just not the way it is and i/we are totally ok with that. i would like to say Happy Valentine's Day to all of you who are doing something special!

kids

2010-01-11T06:26:00.000-08:00

kollin, kynlee, kamryn, alexis, kaden, karter and kar'leigh

this picture is too good not to post somewhere! all 7 kids sitting still, all of them looking at the camera, and all except one(kynlee of course) smiling!

the best christmas weekend ever!

2009-12-28T06:41:00.000-08:00

well i hope everyone had as good of a christmas as i did! the week leading up to christmas i was very busy with cakes and cookies and i was getting the feeling that i was in need of a break. i knew we were leaving on christmas day to go to my grandparents so that kept me going! we got a lot of snow which was wonderful for the whole 'white christmas' thing but not so good when it came to traveling! but we were going to be going north and the roads weren't so bad that direction thank goodness! we left after lunch on christmas day myself, my husband, my mom and 7 kids! we had the 5 oldest kids in our suburban so they could watch movies and my mom had the 2 youngest.....its only a 3 hour trip but with 7 kids ages 7 and under it could get a little hairy..lol!

my grandparents have an old farmhouse out in the country and the kids love it there. i love it there because you don't have to do anything but sit around in pjs and enjoy it...and of course EAT!!

this picture of the house is a couple of years old i don't have a current one but this is the house! i absolutely love it here! and then here's a pic of karter and kar'leigh helping my gran wash dishes...all the kids were great helpers while we were there! anytime we were in the kitchen there was at least one kid wanting to help!

here's some pictures of the kids in there pjs...we had 3 RC trucks and 3 boys but the signals got all mixed up and they were controlling each others trucks! and kynlee as you can see is carrying a box which she carried all weekend...i guess it was her way of keeping all the stuff she wanted to play with away from everybody else!

there were in all 7 kids and 7 adults and as you can imagine sleeping arrangments were crazy....my grandparents and aunt and uncle slept downstairs and we took over the upstairs! the 3 boys slept in one bed and 3 girls slept in another and princess kynlee got to sleep with mom and dad! my mom had to sleep in a twin bed in the dreaded west room the coldest room in the house and the room that i call the vortex where the ghosts come in! lol!

thank goodness my grandparents have a huge table and can fit all of us around it....that means no kids table everybody gets to eat together! every meal was like this breakfast, lunch and dinner....the best times of the day!

here's all the kids around the tree and then with my grandparents and as you can see the "princess" is throwing a fit because she didn't want to take anymore pictures... :/

the kids finally got to go outside on sunday and they went to play in the barn and just run around...i think they were getting a little stir crazy! here they are running around in the barn which my grandparents use for actual "barn dances"! i love it! kollin is smiling and can you believe it....kynlee is crying!! i know not her right!! lol she said 'its too freezing mama!' and 'its too windy mama!' but she has to look good while throwing a fit! lol

nothin like a good cup of hot chocolate with 'smarsh mellows' as they call it after running around in the cold!

and now we are on the road again to come home! very bittersweet....we all had a great time and thats what matters! count your blessings everyday!

what a weekend!

2009-12-14T18:03:00.000-08:00

so this weekend i did a really huge wedding cake and grooms cake! very nerve racking! i have only done one other wedding cake but this one was twice the size and covered in fondant! anyway everything went well and the cake turned out to be beautiful and it was much easier than i had imagined....on the other hand after i did the wedding cake i was up until 3 a.m sunday morning doing a sesame street cake with cookies.......that was way more difficult than the 4 tier wedding cake!

also can't believe it is only 9 days until christmas! i'm just ready for the kids to be done with school for a while! since i'm the stay at home mom i run my kids my little sister and my niece and nephews around to all of their activities. i'm so ready to have a break from that. :)

the kids are on extra good behavior because we have snowy the snowman watching them lol....i move it from room to room and they are like 'he really is watching us!' its so funny!

really looking forward to leaving town christmas day for my grandparents house. there will be no cell phone service and certainly no internet. YAY!!! we always think what would i do without my cell phone or computer.....well enjoy time with family uninterrupted thats what!

thats all for now ttys!

busy i guess.....?

2009-12-08T08:21:00.000-08:00

i can't believe its the 2nd week of december already! i check my blog almost everyday and read others and i keep telling myself i need to do a new post.... i don't know it just hit me today that it's december 8th and i still have a thanksgiving background up and my last post was on thanksgiving day?! i've just been busy i guess :) not too much going on here normal happenings with the moya children. this weather is not my favorite i think i would be a good candidate for hibernation. i would much prefer to never have to leave the house when it's this cold outside. thank goodness for my honey who takes kamryn to school every morning :) i love that! getting up early in the morning is not my favorite either!

this week i am making a wedding and a grooms cake...O.M.G. i am quietly having panic attacks everytime i think about it. i have only made one wedding cake in my life and it was covered with flowers so you could not see all the mess ups. this one will be all me and much larger than the previous......i also have 4 other cakes for this weekend all of which are super easy so maybe that will help. anyway...

on a happy note, abram finally shot a deer! we were both excited but for different reasons i'm sure. he was happy that he got one with a good rack and i was excited that he would not be going hunting at 5:30 every morning. i was tired of waking up to an empty bed. and that on his only day off(sunday) he will be here instead of hunting. call me selfish if you want but when he works 12 hours everyday and is only home a full day on sunday it gets hard. i miss him. ugh enough of that mushy stuff....heres the deer!

yes gross i know but he is very proud and i am very proud of him!

its thanksgiving day!

2009-11-26T05:59:00.000-08:00

today is thanksgiving! i love thanksgiving and i'm thankful that i don't have to cook a turkey! we always have several thanksgiving dinners to attend with different sides of my family and i think thats my favorite part about this day....it lasts the whole weekend :) today we will have lunch with abrams family which will include some traditional TG food like turkey and dressing but there's always some chibo(goat) and other traditional mexican TG food so that's always interesting :) then for dinner we will go to my dad's side of the family where you have all the typical food. friday we get to take the kids to see santa.....my crazy children are afraid of santa but we still stand in line in the freezing cold waiting to see him...lol... saturday we will have thanksgiving with my great grandmother and some aunts and uncles and cousins. that's always a good time and more turkey.... so on sunday we have lunch with my mom and my grandparents and my aunt and uncle. we always try to do something totally different because by that time we are tired of turkey.....this year it's chinese! it was my idea and i have all the recipes so i will be doing most of the cooking and i'm exicted! it will be like my first time to host thanksgiving!

i look at all that i just wrote and just in that paragraph there are so many things to be thankful for....family, friends, food, etc. last sunday the sermon at church was titled 'thanksliving' meaning don't just use thanksgiving day to look at all the things you have to be thankful for but to treat everyday like thanksgiving and realize that everyday there are things to be thankful for. i am thankful for my husband without whom we would not have our 3 beautiful children, our wonderful home and our wonderful life. i am truly grateful for all he does.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!

i've been hit by the christmas spirit!

2009-11-20T07:22:00.001-08:00

YAY!!! i'm soooo excited! i never have a set day as to when i put up the tree....i generally try to wait until thanksgiving but most of the time i just decide on a whim and it's usually horrible timing! but when i get the urge there's no stopping me! last night for example: i should have been decorating cake and i had been to walmart like 2 times but i needed a christmas centerpiece for my dining room table so i went. when i got to walmart(its like 5:30 now) i remembered that i needed some new lights for the tree and then it hit me(the christmas spirit). i just had to get home to put the tree up...the kids needed supper and i had a half done cake in the kitchen but instead i drug out the box with the tree and ornaments and up it went! the kids did get to eat by the way and then they helped me put on all the ornaments most of them homemade by them. those are the best kind. there's no need to have a tree with all matching ornaments and ribbon when there's handmade memories to look at. i just love it. it makes me happy. we did have to get the house cleaned up before daddy got home....it was a total mess. but the kids helped and the house looked wonderful and christmas-y! now if abram will just get the lights on the house we will be complete! i love the holidays!

the kids just starting to put stuff up

kollin, in his underwear i know, that is how he always is...lol

kynlee marie this is the first year that she really knows whats going on and the most precious squeals were coming out of her! she loves it!

....and here it is!

kamryn's 6th birthday

2009-11-10T15:40:00.000-08:00

finally i'm posting about kamryn's birthday! i intended to do it on her actual birthday but just now finding the time. so sunday she turned 6 years old....i cannot believe it has been 6 years. 6 years ago i never dreamed my life would be what it is now. the day she was born i had never felt that way in my entire life. i loved her more than i can express in words but i also felt like she was my best friend and i still feel that way today. i made the decision that day to always tell her like it is and not sugarcoat life for her. she was born with a very strong personality and she still has it. i want her to see things for the way they are and not some rose colored version. she may come off a little blunt at times and i do have to correct her for being rude at times but she speaks her mind and i hope she will always be that way.

ok enough of that...so for her birthday her dad took her hunting for the very first time. she was ready, excited and already wants to go again. when they got home she told me all about it but the one thing that stood out from all the stories was this: she said "i got to see the sun come up with my daddy." such a simple statement. after all the excitment about seeing all the deer and turkey and seeing daddy shoot the deer.....that meant a lot to her. i loved it. while they were hunting i was busy busy getting everything ready for her camo themed birthday party. the party turned out great and her birthday as a whole turned out great.

definitely did not look like a girl party :)

her and her friend mckenzie setting up the bowling pins(she thought she had to have games at her party...lol

play ring toss with antlers

blowing out the candles

the family that manages days inn put happy birthday kamryn moya on their sign(their son is in her class at school) so definitely had to get a picture of that :)

a birthday and a first hunting trip

2009-11-08T10:40:00.000-08:00

...and they're ready to go! it was very early this morning, we woke her up got her dressed and she was ready to go. i was a little worried that she might be gripey since it was so early but she was very excited. at about 9 a.m. i got the call. she said, "mommy we pewmed a deer!" (that means shot) she was so happy but she didn't want to touch it and she said that daddy was dragging it. she's already ready to go again. too bad she has school...lol!

and here she is with the deer. it's only a doe but daddy wanted to shoot something since that was her very first time to go hunting. she really loved it she even wanted to watch while they cleaned it. she told me "don't look momma it's kind of gross" and believe me i didn't want to. birthday party pictures to come soon!

just some pics

2009-11-03T07:20:00.000-08:00

my nephew guillermo eating his birthday lunch which happens to be a delicious rib and a peanut butter cookie :)

kynlee with a classic 'cheese' face

kamryn with baby guillermo

kollin and his cousin jave

the kids eating ribs and sausage

this was at my nephews birthday party sunday. we had a really great time but for me it was the end of a very very exhausting 4 days. i, of course, made the cake but i had made 4 previous to that and numerous cookies. but the relief i was feeling that day was wonderful because i knew that it was finally over! i was actually able to relax and enjoy myself and my kids and my husband which i had not done in those 4 days. yesterday, as monday usually is, was my do absolutely nothing all day day. i didn't open the curtains and i laid in bed catching up on my dvr. i just love mondays! i spent an hour reading with the kids last night(that was another thing that had gone undone) and they were in bed by 8:30. i think my body is finally catching up on the much needed relaxation and i'm ready to go for this week.

halloween treats

2009-10-30T06:54:00.000-07:00

so here's some pictures of the halloween treats i have made. i was up until 3 a.m. doing them only to get up and 6 to start baking cakes because i have 5 cake orders that i haven't even started on!! omg. it will all work out. i think the cookies have come a long way from last years cookies which you can see on my previous post.

halloween week

2009-10-28T07:09:00.000-07:00

i love love LOVE this time of year. from october to december, other than the freezing cold, it is my absolute most favorite time. holidays and family and baking for my family during the holidays. this is halloween week which means parties at school and halloween cookie orders for me! i love decorating halloween cookies and coming up with new ideas. i wish someone would give me a reason to make a huge haunted house/anything goes halloween cake! maybe i'll have to have a party myself next year to do just that. last year i had 7 dozen cookies to decorate. i don't have that many this year but i have other orders. by the end of this week i'll be stressed and tired but i will enjoy every minute. i love getting to be creative. i never knew that i liked being creative or even that i missed it. i'm so grateful that i have a medium to do just that. i think that i have come a long way since last year being my very first year to ever decorate cakes and cookies and such. so here's a picture of my halloween cookies from last year and when i'm done this week i'll post the comparison and see if there's a difference!

family trip to the plex in wichita falls

2009-10-27T16:24:00.000-07:00

kollin in a clown car

kamryn and me after driving the go cart

it's a hole in......25!

the girls playing putt putt

kamryn, kynlee and kollin waiting on the go carts

kollin and daddy gettin ready to ride the go carts

kamryn and daddy playing a game

kynlee driving a flintstone car

we went to the plex for my niece's birthday party. we had fun but there's not a lot for the kids to do since they are so young and most of the arcade games took all of our tokens because they are so old i guess. regardless it was a day we got to spend together as a family and that's always good. you can't ever take spending time with your family for granted. so all in all a good day!

why can't i always be right?

2009-10-20T16:17:00.000-07:00

wouldn't we all love it if that was the case? of course its not and if we were all always right we would never learn anything about life.

abram has this crazy ability to be completely stressed out from work(he works with his family for 10 hours a day) and could've had a horrible day but will come home and you would never know it. now he tells me this made me mad or i was really pissed about that, i mean i know what happens at work but he it never shows in his attitude. it's not just with work either. life in general. he just doesn't dwell on things. i'm not saying that he is always cheery but i think it could be way worse than what i've got it. i just don't know how he does that. i mean when i've had a horrible day at home with the kids he definitely hears about it and gets some of my anger and frustration thrown at him. it's not fair it's just how i deal with it and i'm trying to work on it but it is sooo not easy. even when we fight we'll both come to a point where we know we are fighting about something so ridiculous and he'll say lets just drop it. i of course say ok but inside i'm just in knots trying to keep my mouth shut. i always want to have the last word and i always want to prove that i am right and if we "just drop it" then i never get that chance and it tears me up.

abram and i have been married almost 5 years and i'm just now learning that its not about always being right. i think i'll be forever grateful to him for helping me learn that. and believe me these last 5 years have not been easy and a big reason is because of my stubborness. we love each other now just as much if not more than when we got married but it has not been easy.

this issue i have is not a simple one to overcome. it is so hard for me to let go of hard feelings towards other people and of opinions that i have that are based off of those feelings. so i think i will be attending a birthday party this weekend that i do not want to be at but i know its the right thing to do. i will make the best of the situation and be the bigger person.

don't be a crybaby woman!

2009-10-14T07:42:00.000-07:00

these are words from my loving husband. i had just gashed my hand pretty badly and was crying when he said this. he does love me he just doesn't handle crisis well. in the grand spectrum of things this incident was not a crisis but at the time i was in some pain. i was trying to fix a loose towel bar, which happens pretty often without incident, and it slipped and gashed my hand. you know when you're a kid and you stub your toe you can cry because you know your parents will scoop you up and hold you until you settle down. when you're an adult and you stub your toe you mumble a couple of explicits under your breath and keep on going. that was my plan until i saw the gash and i started crying like a baby. that's when abram's concerned comment came in. he said you've had 3 kids and this is what you're crying about! i told him if i was giving birth simutaneously to having a gash in my hand that i would rather have the gash but this was not the case and i can cry if i want to! i love him he really is a sweetheart but it freaks him out when he can see that i might not have control of things. he and my sister forced me to let them call my stepmom who is a great nurse. my sister and i have 6 kids between us all under 6 so she is always on call with us! i did not want to call her because i knew that she would have to clean it and do all that nurse stuff and that meant more pain for me. of course i knew i had to and it was super painful. this morning is much better and my hand is on the mend. i'm sure decreased functionality has got to be a fear for all moms. this could have been worse so i'm very grateful.

weekends are supposed to be relaxing??

2009-10-12T07:32:00.000-07:00

to most weekends are supposed to be relaxing. mine was filled with decorating cakes. not a complaint. most of the time i'm done with cakes by saturday morning. i was still doing cake at 2 a.m. saturday. had a little less time with the kids but the kids had a little more time with their nina(my mom). i'm very grateful to all the people that ask me to make cakes for their special occasions, i'm glad to be a part of it.

sundays are about family time and football

2009-10-04T18:01:00.000-07:00

in our house sunday is the only day that dad has off so we try to spend as much time as possible together as a family. church, grocery shopping and football watching. abram's cousin plays guard for the chicago bears so we are always rooting for them. i love the cowboys and abram cheers for whoever the cowboys are playing against :) we also watch desperate housewives which abram would not admit(he's really obsessed with it) and sometimes a family movie with the kids. all in all it's definitely my absolute favorite day of the week

be patient i'm new at this

2009-10-03T18:21:00.000-07:00

so now we have a blog for our family! i'm excited! maybe i'll get the hang of this...... right now its almost bedtime and the kids are watching a movie since its the weekend i will let them stay up until daddy gets home. more posts and pictures to come!